On Writing and my Soul

Lately, I haven't been able to think of anything to write. And it scares me. Words are my sunlight. Letters and thoughts are the air that I breathe in. Without them, I feel like my world's gone black and white. Everything's dreary.

I am not sure where the lack of inspiration started. Could be the series of ordinary days that I have. Could be the Time that I can never grab by my hands. All I know is that I cannot live without my soul.

So hear I am. Trying to breath. Trying to see colours and live again.

Hope I succeed.

Night

The dark of the night drifts by..
And the cold wind wraps itself around me
Cold..unforgiving..

I cower in one corner
Hiding from the glare of the moon
My panacea deserts me

The stars remain black and cold
They are lifeless diamonds
They stare...they judge

The icy glare penetrates me
They creep into my dulled senses
until my soul is dried out

In one corner, I wait
Wait for my indigo hues
Which I will kiss at the break of the dawn

In the corner, I wait
Anticipating the single sliver of light
Which will eventually peek right through

I wait..

Things I want to do while I still live

First, I'm not morbid nor dying nor sick. Haha! I am in major major perfect health.

I was thinking, while nearly throwing up on Kennon Road twisty curves earlier this dawn that life is a beautiful thing. Despite the fact that it isn't perfect, it still provides us with little miracles each and every day. Life is truly glorious and I want to make the best of it and embrace it, roses and thorns alike and experience it with all its simple majesty. It is a wonderful thing to be alive. :)

Having said that, while I live, there are things that I've been thinking would be fun to do to fully appreciate MY LIFE. :) Some are simple, some are impossible, some I have done already and want to do again. :) Some maybe even trivial to you. Hopefully, I can achieve most, if not all. :) So here it goes...

1. Wake up the entire night with my hun with a telescope, stare up the sky, wait for a comet or a meteor and sleep underneath the stars

2. Eat 10 cheeseburgers without stopping until I literally throw up haha :)

3. Help an old lady cross the street (I honestly have never this in action and this has been an cliche example of GMRC during elementary and HS days heehee)

4. Go on a safari

5. Swim with the dolphins (hopefully no sharks)

6. Run at the beach with my 2 dogs (never had time to do this)

7. Slurp down as much chocolate ice cream as I can until I get a headache (Oops, I've already done this haha)

8. Skydive! Bungee jump!! Any extreme sport will do.

9. Walk around the city and take pictures with a really good camera for one whole day (dawn till dusk
literally)

10. Sing or speak in front of a big audience..and conquer my fear :) (Yikes)

11. Befriend someone I don't like till we become genuine friends

12. Attend a ball or a dance again

13. Tell someone how I feel the moment I feel it whether good or bad :)

14. Go to the beach with my bestfriends and just play the day away
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15. Talk to a friend that I had a falling out with

16. Dance in the rain silly :)

17. Run through sprinklers

18. Watch chick flicks the whole night with popcorn and soda and tissues and cry

19. Hug a total stranger

20. Cook randomly without any recipes at all (hahah..good luck pero sa kakain)

21. See sunrise or sunset at the beach.

22. Learn a sport or a hobby and be good at it.

23. Spend a night in a really expensive hotel just because I want to

24. Ride in an airplane :)